Thursday, December 31, 2009

Musing...

it's something...

how one day you don't know what you want.

then something makes you realize what you do want.

but then you find you can't have it

and realize God's plan doesn't always coincide with yours. 

That's life I guess:

Sometimes we need to taste the bitter to appreciate the sweet.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Be back soon....

We all caught a nasty stomache bug here at our house so I'm going to have to get caught up here in a few days.  Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and have a happy and safe New Year's celebration.

Friday, December 25, 2009

Thankful Christmas



Merry Christmas to all my bloggy friends who celebrate this blessed holiday.  I thought I'd go with a Christmas edition of Thankful Thursday (despite the fact that it's Friday)...
  • My family: my husband, son, parents above, aunts, uncles, cousins, in-laws... Everyone one of them enriches my life.
  • My son's smile when, despite all the (many, many) toys he received last night and this morning, his favorite gift was a cannister of Gerber Cheese Puffs. 
  • My faith which helps me through difficult times
  • My friends who smile with me in good times and lend a shoulder in bad.
  • My friend Angie who's surprise Christmas gift actually made me cry (in a good way)
  • Have I mentioned my son?  The light of my life.
  • The blessings we have every day: food on the table, a roof over our heads, and clothes on our selves.  it's so easy to overlook what is sadly a luxury for some.
  • And, of course, I am thankful for the blessed gift for which we celebrate Christmas today: Our Savior, Jesus Christ.
*Photo credit: Star of Wonder by c.a. muller on flickr

Monday, December 21, 2009

I'm going back to work (well, sort of)...


I've been thinking about how I've been in a scheduleless (I know that's not a word but work with me here) funk lately and that I really need to do something about it.  If I had a traditional office job, I'd get up, shower, get dressed... you see where I'm going here, right?  Does being a stay-at-home mom truly give me license to get to work late.  I do have a job: I run a daycare for one and a household for three (six if you count the three felines who also reside here).  It really is a lot of work.  Sure, I make my own schedule but that's where I'm beinging to thinnk the problem lies.... schedule? what schedule?  Read this then check back with me tomorrow for my New Year's post (I changed my mind) and I'll fill you in on my plan.

Toodles...

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Christmas Traditions and Missing Home

It's funny - I say "missing home" but I've lived on this side of the country for slightly over six years now.  You'd think I'd stop referring to San Diego as home but the truth is that it will always be my hometown.

Christmas is less than a week away and I've had the hardest time getting into a holiday groove this year.  I've tried, don't get me wrong, but somehow it just hasn't felt right.  That got me thinking about Christmas traditions and I realized something:   I don't think I (we) have established any yet.  I think we're trying to start some but maybe our family is still new.  As we creep closer and closer to the big day, I am excited to see Christmas throught my son's eyes.  I'm also determined to start some new - and maybe recreate some old - traditions.

I remember....

As a child I was always allowed to open one present on Christmas Eve.  It was always some sort of pajamas.  I loved it.

Up until the time my mom became ill with cancer our family attended a Christmas party on Christmas eve at a friend's house.  I played pool with a little boy my age.  I always thought I was good.  Now I wonder.

The day after Thanksgiving, we'd get up super early, go to breakfast and tag our Christmas tree at Denk's Tree Farm.  (We'd pick the tree up a couple weeks later.)  When we got home, it was time to pull out the many boxes of Christmas decorations and get the lights up.  I even decorated my room.  We had lights everywhere.  Not quite Griswaldesque but definitely a lot of lights.

For many years we went to Christmas on the Prado.  They've since changed the name but I loved watching the Living Christmas Tree and drinking hot chocolate.  I loved it when it was cold and I (not so secretly) always wished for snow. 

I skated in at least two Christmas ice shows ever year.  Later I would coach skaters for the Christmas show.  I miss that.

Speaking of skating - I remember being on the ice before the crack of dawn, tracing my figures on the smooth ice, and hearing the mall staff (did I mention my home rink was in a shopping mall?) setting up the giant Christmas displays.  I'd get excited.

I remember La Jolla Figure Skating Club Christmas parties on ice... where else can  you party at 6am ON ICE?

I remember the La Jolla Christmas Parade, the Parade of Lights on San Diego Bay, and Candy Cane Lane

I hope...

That my son will look forward to his yearly pajama present on Christmas Eve

That we will continue the family trip to the tree farm.

That we will find new traditions, make them ours, and that our children will look back fondly on them as they begin new traditions with their own families.

Merry Christmas!

Friday, December 18, 2009

Did you know?

  • Postpartum depression (PPD) doesn't necessarily begin immediatly after a birth.  For some women it may begin during pregnancy. For others it could be a year or more (some believe it can happen anytime within the first five years) postpartum. 
  • Some women may suffer from a type of PPD following an adoption
  • Some men suffer a type of postpartum depression
  • PPD (or any perinatal mood or anxiety disorder) can affect others in your household.
  • Most women who suffer from PPD do not have any desire to harm their child. 
  • Postpartum Psychosis and PPD are not the same thing but both are treatable.
  • There are many resources out there for those that suffer from a perinatal mood disorder as well as for concerned (and/or affected) friends and family. 
Learn more with this link from Postpartum Progress.

*Please contact your doctor or other medical professional for a diagnosis. This post is not intended to provide or replace medical advice.  If you feel like harming yourself or your baby, call 911.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Christmas Gift Idea

I was poking around SITS today and happened to find these adorable necklaces made from Scrabble game pieces.  They are ADORABLE!  I can't decide which I like best.  Probably a good thing they're on sale this week, too.  I think this might be my favorite, though:



Anyway, check out the store and maybe cross a name off your Christmas gift list: handmade by Home Studio

*Photo copyright by Home Studio.

Thursday, November 26, 2009

Thankful Thursday - Thanksgiving Edition

Thanksgiving is a time we are supposed to give thanks. I think sometimes we forget that. The Thanksgiving holiday has become so commercialized today. I remember growing up and seeing commercials with families gathered around the Thanksgiving table sharing a meal together. Sure, it was to sell a product but somehow it was different. This year I saw maybe one such commercial. Once. Mostly, they're all about Black Friday sales and how we need to be at the stores at 3 am. (Really? 3am? I don't get it.) On that note, I think it's time to reflect on the year and what I'm most thankful for.

I am thankful for my family. I am blessed to have a wonderful loving husband, healthy son, extended family that loves us dearly, and two parents who watch over us from above.

I am thankful for my friends. We may not see each other as regularly as we used to but I'm so lucky to have friends that are always there when you need them. Looking back on all our fun times over the years often brings a smile to my face.

I'm thankful that despite difficult economic times we have a roof over our heads, food on the table, and reliable transportation. I'm fortunate enough to be home with my son - sure we pinch pennies but it's oh so worth it.

I am thankful that I've begun to enjoy motherhood. I still have my difficult moments but I've found a way to fight PPD and win. I can't begin to describe how thankful I am for this.

I'm thankful that I live in a country that makes me feel safe. That so many men and women serve our country to keep us safe - whether it be in the military, a police force, fire department, or government. Without them, we wouldn't have so many of the blessings we do. I can't forget to be thankful for their families as well - all the spouses, children, parents who support them to no end.

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, blessed Thanksgiving.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

You really need to check this out...

First of all, I have to say that I {heart} La Jolla Mom's blog. Not only because I miss living in the La Jolla area but also because she shares some wonderful finds.

Now, on with the business at hand. Are you like me; do you always forget to take your reusable grocery bags to the store? I'm guilty of getting them to the car but no farther. By the time I get my two year old situated in the shopping cart and realize I forgot the bags, let's just face it: I'm not going back out to the parking lot to get them. Truly, I need this bag:
But I digress. Check out La Jolla Mom's post to see the product that just might solve the problem. It's called Tote Buddy and she explains it much better than I can. (Oh - and she's having a giveaway, too!)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

It's Prematurity Awareness Day

Today is National Prematurity Awareness Day and November is Prematurity Awareness Month. I received an email from March of Dimes this morning relaying the results of the second annual Premature Birth Report Card. Our country scored a D. That frightens me.

Admittedly, I have yet to read the report but this cause is still an important one to me. My cousin's son, William, was born premature (I believe at around 24 weeks) just over a month before I was lucky enough to welcome home my healthy baby boy. William went through many surgeries and has become the bravest little man I know. It brought a tear to my eye when I saw recent pictures of a happy, healthy William. I know he still has much ahead of him but I know we are all so thankful that because of research, and a survivor spirit, little William is here today.

Join the Fight for Preemies and find out how you can help. Donate now.

Monday, November 16, 2009

The Symptoms of Postpartum Depression

Have you ever wondered what women go through when they have postpartum depression? What their thoughts are? What makes it postpartum depression? If you are interested in learning more (and I hope you are; if not for your sake, then for the sake of someone you may know now or in the future), please read Katherine Stone's latest post:
The Symptoms of Postpartum Depression & Anxiety (In Plain Mama English) - Postpartum Progress

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My First Ever Blog Award

First, my sincere apologies for neglecting my bloggy duties for so long. Life has been crazy and I never seem to get caught up. I'm hoping that will change soon but in the meantime...

Amber over at Beyond Postpartum awarded my blog this award in thanks of my support of "Survivor Mamas" (those of us who have survived a perinatal mood disorder). I am so honored that she chose me as one of the recipients. Though my blog has gone many different directions since I started it, it was born out of my desire to share my PPD experiences with others and to do my little part to help spread knowledge of such disorders. Please take a minute to visit Amber's blog and learn more about her journey. Thank you, Amber!



The blog award rules:
To accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his/her blog link. Pass the award to approximately 15 other blogs that you have recently discovered and think are great! Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chose for this award.
Ok.. now this is where I am breaking the rules... I've been so busy that I haven't had time in recent months to discover 15 new blogs. I do promise to continue nominating blogs and posting them on my web as I can. I WILL nominate 15 deserving blogs; just not all at once. I hope that's OK.
Another rule breaker... I didn't recently discover these two but that's not their fault and they certainly deserve recognition I nominate:
  1. Inside the Shell for sharing her survivor strength
  2. New Beginnings for her honesty
  3. Singing in the Rain for being an inspiration
  4. Grab a Cup for sharing her PPD journey to give others strength
  5. Musings, Musings, Musings - The Muser shares her experiences with perinatal and postpartum depression, motherhood and more.  She is also starting a weekly round up of other blogs that discuss perinatal mood disorders (and I thank her for including me on the list).
  6. Housewife Bliss - What a fun blog!  Her recent posts have included Sexy New Girlfriend - the experiment and Looking at my home with fresh eyes.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Uh oh...


Remember this? My 2009 De-Clutter Challenge? I think I forgot about it. I was doing really well. I was. Some days I may have missed my goal but on other days I far exceeded it so I felt that sort of evened things out. Somewhere around, oh, June or July, though, it seems I began to forget about my challenge. But 2009 isn't over yet; right? I still have just shy of two months to follow through. Wish me luck!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Something to Think About

I was reading a post yesterday, by Katherine Stone of Postpartum Progress, about whether or not to have another baby after having postpartum depression. It struck a chord. I could completely identify with the author of the article she referenced. In the deepest, darkest days of my PPD, I would react with a vehement "no, I'm done" to anyone who made even the slightest suggestion that I should/would have another baby.

Today, I'm on the fence. On my good days I think that, with the right planning and help, maybe just maybe I could do this again. On my bad days I can still vividly recall my misery and fear ever going through that again. Just when I think we've decided that "yes, we can handle this," I vacillate yet again.

Don't get me wrong - I LOVE my son more than anything and I most certainly can't imagine my life without him. That deep feeling of love, though, did not come easily. After he was born, I knew in my head that I loved him but, try as I might, I couldn't feel that emotion the way I thought I should. There's a picture of me in the hospital holding my new little bundle that my husband recently told me was his favorite picture because of the look on my face as I looked down at our son. It broke my heart that his favorite picture was not at all what it seemed. You see, I remember that moment. I remember trying so hard to put what I thought should be the appropriate look on my face because maybe then I'd feel what I should. At the time I attributed this to a grueling labor/delivery and pure exhaustion. I would later learn otherwise.

So only time will will tell what is in store for our little family. Having grown up an only child and then losing my mother at 16 and my father at 24, I vowed I would never have only one child. Now I look at my little guy, currently playing with every car he owns, and wonder: would he miss out on even more of me if we give him a sibling? I just don't know.

Speaking of missing out... I think I'm going to go play with some cars.

Thankful Thursday

My five for today...
  • I'm thankful for a healthy little boy.
  • I'm thankful for a loving marriage.
  • I'm thankful for a full night's sleep.
  • I'm thankful for the fact that the leftover Halloween candy is almost gone so I won't be tempted any more.
  • I'm thankful that "Turtle" will be here next week!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Speaking of an early Christmas...

Have you heard about this brave little boy? Please take a moment this week to send him a Christmas card: http://www.mattbacak.com/mattbacaklife/help-little-noah-celebrate-christmas-early/

His Care Page (register for a free account to view): https://www.carepages.com/carepages/NoahScottBiorkman

I'm Giving In


It is November 4th and tonight I drove past a home already adorned with Christmas lights. Typically I'd be the November "Bah Humbug" girl complaining that the holiday season is over commercialized and it's so ridiculous that the Christmas displays are out and that in a few short weeks (perhaps even days) the radio stations will be warming up their endless Christmas tunes. This year, I've had a change of heart. I remember saying to my husband, the day after Christmas last year, something along the lines of, "I can't believe Christmas is over; I didn't even have a chance to enjoy the season." Hmmm..... Flash back to the previous November as I Bah-Humbugged my way through stores and changing radio stations. So this year I'm not going to waste my time with negative energy. I am, instead, going to embrace the season early and see what happens. Happy Holidays!

P.S. I have referred to Christmas because it is the holiday my family and I celebrate; I by no means me to offend anyone who celebrates holidays of other faiths. I wish you ALL a blessed season.
**Photo credit: jspad's photstream on flickr
Did I tell you I was given a blog award? No, I didn't; did I? Well, I'm in the process of working on my "acceptance post" so I should have the details for you soon. I promise.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Please stay tuned...

I've been crazy the past month or so with so many different things but I promise I will work on dusting off my blog again this week. Thanks for your patience!

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thankful Thursday



It's that time again!

  • I'm thankful that my son will finally be getting some speech therapy to get him talking! (I'm also thankful that all his other skills are at or above par.)
  • I'm thankful that despite the fact it always looks like a bomb went off in my kitchen when hubby gets home from work, he still loves me and wants to keep me. :)
  • I'm thankful that my son slept ALL night, two nights in a row, with NO binkie!! Woo hoo!
  • I'm thankful that the FedEx guy that just delivered a package didn't ring the doorbell (which would have likely woken up a napping little dude).
  • I'm thankful that this crazy, hectic week is finally nearing the end.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Prettiest Fall Foliage Drives


Fall is my most favorite time of year so I thought I'd take a quick moment to post this link. I can't wait to go on some family fall drives, decorate the house with warm decorations, and smell the smells of pumpkin pie, apple spice and cinnamon. Mmmmm... I'm feeling cozy just thinking about it!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Uh oh...

I just did the math: I'm 4 months away from the end of my 2009 Fifty Book challenge and I have only read 18 books. That means I have 4 months (less, really) to read 32 books. Can it be done? I wonder if Goodnight Moon counts...

September is Gynecological Cancer Awareness Month

In July of 2003 I had pre-cancerous cells removed from my cervix. In 2006, my friend became a cervical cancer survivor. We are both thankful that we went for regular, yearly check-ups. Please make sure you do, too.

Friends tell friends how to prevent cervical cancer.  Learn how at www.pearlofwisdom.us

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Things I've Learned Since Becoming a Mother



  1. If travelling with your entire family, ALWAYS get the travel insurance.

  2. Only take your toddler to playgrounds that are parent friendly; following your child up and down climbing structures while hunched over because they're designed for someone who is only two feet tall is just not fun.

  3. A mother's gut is always right (no matter what daddy thinks).

  4. The whole "nap when baby naps" suggestion doesn't work.

  5. Always plan to leave the house at least 15 minutes earlier than you think you need to leave the house.

  6. Don't plan on ever being on time again. Ever.

  7. Your child is not like everybody else's. (No matter what they think.)

  8. There can't possibly be any feeling better in this world than an unsolicited hug from your child.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Thankful Thursday

(An unorthodox list this week.)

This week's five things I'm thankful for:

  1. I remembered Thankful Thursday this week.
  2. Ok - this one might be construed as a shameless plug but I swear I would have posted it no matter what: Avon Skin-So-Soft body wash and lotion. I came to the realization that by using the body wash and lotion this summer, before heading outdoors, I have had NO mosquito bites. Coming from a girl who is not only allergic, but also an apparent mosquito delicacy, this is a HUGE development. Here's the shameless plug: I sell Avon and you can get free shipping right now if you click here.
  3. Air Conditioning
  4. Renew lotion (this could be yet another shameless plug for another of my WAH ventures but we'll save that for another time; we'll just leave it at the pure fact that this stuff completely rescued my feet from a life hidden by socks and shoes and I can now wear flip-flops in public.)
  5. That in a few short weeks, I get to go "home" for a visit.

Friday, August 7, 2009

Freebie Friday

I came across some great freebies this week and thought I'd share them with you. Some were from our local news segment "Ways2Save" and others I came about through message boards or web-browsing. Maybe you'll find something here you like:

Free Sample Freak
Free Sample Freak - offers leads for free samples and more. Put together by a stay-at-home-mom who loves saving money.

Schwan's Food Service - Free item valued at $10 or less for new customers. No additional purchase required. (Mine arrived today. ) While you're there, sign up for the Schwan's Eat for Free program and start earning free food for referring friends and family.

Yapta - track already booked flights and get a refund if the fares drop! Claims to save the average traveler approximately $300/year.

Amazon.com - Shopping for books on a budget? They have a huge selection of 4-for-3 Books (buy 3 get one free)!

Free FiberOne samples and $5 in free coupons. Click here.

Thursday, July 30, 2009

Book Recommendation


I just finished The Mighty Queens of Freeville by Amy Dickinson (of "Ask Amy" fame) and had to share what a wonderful book it was. Poignant is a word that comes to mind. I found it to be touching and inspirational and it really left me in a happy place every time I read a little bit of it.


Please excuse this short post which is really not a true book review. For a more thorough (ok, and "real") review, check out Margaret Andrew's (of Nanny Goats in Panties bloggy fame) review over at curled up with a good book.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Friday, July 24, 2009

I have an addiction....

You know those cute little buttons you find on blogs that say "grab me"? I love them. I want to collect them all. There are so many creative and cute blog buttons out there. Blinkies, too... I love blinkies. I think I have a problem; I mean, have you scrolled down my side-bar lately? It goes on and on and on with buttons and blinkies. Yet, I want more. I think I'll have to start a new blog purely for my button, badge and blinkie collections.


Thursday, July 23, 2009

Thankful Thursday

This week's five:
  • Air Conditioning
  • Infant Tylenol
  • Sleep
  • Mr. Clean Magic Eraser
  • Elmo

(I think you get the idea of how my week has gone so far.)

Attorneys to try 11th-hour bid to save seals at La Jolla beach | L.A. Now | Los Angeles Times

I grew up going to this beach, a toddler playing in the sand, and later memories of watching the seals make their home here. I really hope they get to stay...
Attorneys to try 11th-hour bid to save seals at La Jolla beach L.A. Now Los Angeles Times

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Thursday, July 16, 2009

Thankful Thursday









Today's Five:

  • Aleve which seems to be the only thing helping my poor back after a mommy-picking-up-squirmy-toddler incident yesterday.
  • The fact that I can almost stand up straight today. (Soooo close.)
  • Despite the back injury, I got to go enjoy a Mom's Night Out last night and met some new people.
  • Matchbox cars - which distracted my son enough this morning to allow me to enjoy some coffee unperturbed.
  • My health - go read this blog and be inspired and thankful.

P.S. - If anyone can tell my why Blogger changes paragraph spacing, no matter what I do, I would greatly appreciate some help.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Book Recommendation for Moms

If you've been here before, you know I'm a huge fan of Elizabeth Pantley and her no-cry solution books. The No-Cry Sleep Solution was a life saver for us. Here's the latest addition to my growing "No-Cry" Library:


We're just beginning our potty training journey, and are only in the "introductory" phase with our 19 month old son, but I can already tell this book is going to be yet another invaluable resource for us.

Here's a sneak peek excerpted from the book:

Potty Training - Get Ready, Get Set, GO!


If your child is near or has passed his first birthday, you can begin incorporating pre-potty training ideas into his life. They are simple things that will lay the groundwork for potty training and will make the process much easier when you're ready to begin.

During diaper changes, narrate the process to teach your toddler the words and meanings for bathroom-related functions, such as pee-pee and poo-poo. Include descriptive words that you'll use during the process, such as wet, dry, wipe, and wash. If you're comfortable with it, bring your child with you when you use the toilet. Explain what you're doing. Tell him that when he gets bigger, he'll put his pee-pee and poo-poo in the toilet instead of in his diaper. Let him flush the toilet if he wants to.

Help your toddler identify what's happening when she wets or fills her diaper. Tell her, "You're going poo-poo in your diaper." Have her watch you dump and flush.

Start giving your child simple directions and help him to follow them. For example,
ask him to get a toy from another room or to put the spoon in the dishwasher.

Encourage your child to do things on her own: put on her socks, pull up her pants, carry a cup to the sink, or fetch a book.

Have a daily sit-and-read time together.


Take the readiness quiz again every month or two to see if you're ready to move on to active potty learning.

Excerpted with permission.


Postpartum Progress: Time Magazine Skips the Facts About Postpartum Depression

Postpartum Progress: Time Magazine Skips the Facts About Postpartum Depression

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I think I'm a loner.

Let me explain. For those of you that don't know, I moved to Western New York from San Diego almost six years ago. I'm a San Diego native - born and raised in America's Finest City (well, a suburb there of but you get the picture). How I came to Western New York is another story for another time.

I've always felt a little bit "different" from the local natives but this summer that feeling has hit me hard. You see, I seem to be the only one here enjoying our weather in the 70's. It's been sunny and below 80 and I think that's awesome. Not much humidity to trigger my asthma, no over-heating chasing my one year old around the back yard. I mean, could it get any better? Apparently. No one I know here likes this weather. Everyone seems to like the temps over 80. So here I am, alone in my love of the weather. Sniff sniff, boo hoo. Somebody tell me I'm not crazy.

On another note, I'll come up with some more interesting blog posts this week. Guess I've been too busy enjoying the weather to come up with any engaging blog material lately.

Happy Blogging! :)

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I would like to introduce you to Alice.

Who is Alice you ask? Alice is a fabulous online shopping service. I heard about it on our local news segment last night (Ways2Save) and already placed my first order today. I am so excited, not only about the money I saved, but about the time I shaved off to my actual trip to the grocery store for fresh food items today. (Trust me, with a 19 month old in tow the faster I can get in and out, the better.)

Here's how it works: You sign up for a free account and start shopping. It's that simple. I chose to sort my product searches by sale price and wow did I save some money. Shipping is ALWAYS FREE so you get your items delivered to your doorstep within 2-3 business days and it doesn't cost anymore than going to the store (maybe even less if you factor in gas). How great is that??? Click the picture below to visit Alice and introduce yourself.


Thursday, July 2, 2009

Thankful Thursday


This weeks' five:
  • I remembered that it's "Thankful Thursday" (just in the nick of time)
  • The weekend is almost here.
  • The house to the rear of our property that went from horrible tenants to horribly neglected in a year has officially been demolished!
  • I had almost a full night's sleep the past two nights.
  • Our DVD player which saved a rainy day

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Just Wondering



Do you think that a blog has to have a theme that reflects its title, etc.? I would love to get a blog makeover one of these days but it just isn't in the budget to spend money on my bloggy hobby right now. That being said, I've been playing around with some free backgrounds today (you may have noticed if you've stopped by more than once) and I just cant find one that "works" with my "theme." (Do I have a theme anymore? I'm really not sure.) Don't get me wrong, I've found a ton of seasonal themes that I love but I'm trying to match something to my current header and, well, it's just plain not working. This is where you come in: I want your opinion so let your eye wander over to the right of my blog and take my poll. Thank you! :)

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Shout-Out to Turtle


This post is really a shout out to my good friend, "Turtle" of Inside the Shell, but I think some of my other readers might enjoy this little find, too.
I was perusing the Sunday paper this morning and found the annual Buffalo Magazine insert (mostly advertisements with some interesting short articles here and there) and, about half-way through, I discovered a page of unique finds which included the adorable little turtle pictured above. Do you know what it is? If not, let me help you out: It's called I-Turtle and, manufactured by Hasbro, is an adorable little speaker for your ipod (or any handheld music device). According to the product description, it's head sways, foot taps, and shell moves to the music and it also flashes colorful LEDs. It retails for around $19.99 and, although I haven't personally tested it, seems to me like a fun little find for the kid in us all.

Friday, June 26, 2009

Book Review: The Great Eight



In his latest book, The Great Eight: How to Be Happy (even when you have every reason to be miserable), Olympic champion and cancer survivor Scott Hamilton outlines what he believes to be the eight general guidelines for finding happiness in your life. His well known wit and humor show through in his writing however he includes some information that seems somewhat unnecessary and distracting. If you have a competitive figure skating background, and already know much of the history and terms which he discusses, it can be somewhat distracting to the main theme of the book. Overall, it’s a good read with some practical advice but if you’re looking for a polished, traditional “self-help” book, this isn’t it.

Hamilton offers many reminders about the important things in life, taking time for faith and family, and just really remember what is important and what is not. Perhaps the most important lesson Hamilton offers is a reminder not to resist change but, rather, to accept change as an opportunity to grow: "If you take the challenge to change as an opportunity to grow and learn something new, you have mad ethe best decision - now you can evolve."

Hamilton offers some insight into his personal life - his struggles, his triumphs and even his mistakes. Those who often have a negative outlook or have trouble letting go of mistakes will likely find these reflections useful in applying Hamilton's lessons to their own life.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Thankful Thursday


My five for today:
  • Caffeine - after a sleepless night (thanks to my wonderful, adorable one year old); I don't think I could have survived this morning without it.
  • My husband who made the coffee this morning.
  • Ceiling fans that are doing a great job of keeping our house cool in this heat.
  • Finally feeling like "me" again. (It was a long road.)
  • My new bloggy friends - I'm so excited to have some new followers and to have found some great new blogs to follow myself.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

From One Blog to Another

About a year ago, in the midst of my postpartum depression, I discovered Katherine Stone's blog Postpartum Progress. While perusing the wealth of material on her blog, I came upon a link to Julie Green's blog Up Up the Blog. So, I began following Julie's blog which led me to her etsy site and, post purchase, she referred me to Paper Source: a wonderful source for paper, envelopes, invitations, and other such supplies. Well, I fell in love with that site (seriously could go broke there) and guess what? They, too, have a blog. Which leads me here: Check out this wonderful tip for making your own (beautiful) recycled vases. How's that for blog hopping?



Friday, June 19, 2009

Blog Guilt Free

Thanks to Pam, of the blog Pam's Perspective, I've discovered this revolution: guilt free blogging. It's about blogging because you enjoy blogging and not because you feel like you HAVE to post SOMETHING every day. If you're a regular reader of my blog, you know I've been struggling with blog topic ideas lately. It seems like the more I feel I HAVE to post something the harder it is to come up with something to post. Vicious cycle, don't you think? I still consider myself a new blogger and I don't really know where my blog is headed. I think that's OK, though. I have a one year old, a husband, three needy cats, and a house that won't clean itself (although wouldn't it be great if it did?); that being said, I think I'm entitled to guiltless blogging. Here's something to ponder (thank you, Pam): Is it better to post something every day or to post a "quality" post every once in a while? Whatever the answer, I've joined the revolution. You can join, too - look for the button in the column to the right and join the revolution. Happy blogging!

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Thankful Thursday



Five things I'm thankful for today:
  • My friend Julie who supplied me with enough birthday chocolate to get me through my construction aggravations.
  • A sleeping toddler.
  • Quiet.
  • Family Time.
  • That by 8pm this evening my dreaded traffic court appearance will be OVER.

Update 6/19/09: I just realized I thanked Julie for chocolate two Thursdays in a row. Wow. Guess I've been consuming much more chocolate than I realized. LOL.

Postpartum Support Forum

I was asked by Jennifer Ford Berry to host a forum (on her Western New York Mom network) for women who may be struggling with postpartum depression or baby blues. Many of you know that I suffered from postpartum depression after the birth of my son and have become, not only very open about my experience, but also something of an advocate for women with postpartum depression. If you would like to join the discussion, please visit the WNY Mom Postpartum Support Forum.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Postpartum Progress: For Moms Who Feel Bad Before Breastfeeding, This May Be Why

I, without a doubt, had postpartum depression after the birth of my son. What I didn't realize was that I also had a condition which made me feel upset, even nauseous, when I would begin to nurse my son. I commented once or twice to my husband about it and then essentially wrote it off as part of my postpartum depression. Turns out I was not alone in feeling this way. If you relate and are interested in learning more, visit Katherine Stone's post at Postpartum Progress by clicking this link:
Postpartum Progress: For Moms Who Feel Bad Before Breastfeeding, This May Be Why

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Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Construction


This is just one of the views through my family room window this morning. For almost two weeks now the private boarding school behind us has been constructing tennis courts adjacent to our property line. What used to be a relaxing view of greenery and nature from my family room is now a giant dirt pile and assorted large (noisy) construction machines. Construction monsters are more like it as these things are HUGE. Yesterday my house literally vibrated for a good portion of the afternoon (I felt like I was living in the SoCal land of earthquakes again) prompting me to take my son and head to Target (a dangerous venture for a Target shop-a-holic like myself). I keep telling myself that I need to just let it go - there's nothing we can do about it and eventually the courts will be built and we'll adjust to having them less than 30 feet from our property line. Yes, I keep telling myself this yet I'm having a seriously difficult time letting go of the aggravation and irritation. I wonder if there's a self-help book on how to do that.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Thankful Thursday


Five things I'm thankful for today:

Yesterday my husband and I celebrated our third wedding anniversary ~ I'm so very thankful that I found my soul mate who makes me happier than I ever knew I could be.

My adorable son who has made me smile so many times this week despite his more frustrating moments.

Chocolate (and my friend Julie who supplied me with quite a stash for my birthday).

Coffee - without which I probably would not have survived the last several sleep deprived days.

Quiet - which makes me sane after a hectic day.




Monday, June 8, 2009

I need some help

I seem to have failed at my goal of catching up on blogging over the weekend. I just can't seem to get the creative juices flowing. So, now I turn to you.... any suggestions, random questions, or creative topics?

Friday, June 5, 2009

Catching Up

For some reason I have found it difficult to get to my blogging lately. I find myself, once again, falling behind in not only writing my own blogs but also in reading my favorites and discovering new (to me) blogs. Perhaps it's because I have a fussy 18 month old, rearranged the living room and the kitchen, totally cleaned house, did a ton of laundry, hosted a house guest, and installed a new printer. I don't know... is that really a good excuse for neglecting my bloggy friends? Please forgive me. My goal is to get back on track and get a few posts in over the weekend as well as some very overdue blog commenting. Please don't abandon me.... I promise I'll make it up to you.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

May is Skin Cancer Awareness Month

It's that time of year... the sun is shining and everyone heads outdoors for fresh air, family fun, and some sun. It also means it's time to stock up on the sunscreen and sun smarts. Did you know that skin cancer is the most common type of cancer?

When I moved to Western New York almost five years ago (having been born and raised in Southern California) I was somewhat surprised to notice how tanning - either at a salon or out in the sun - seemed much more prevalent than in my hometown of San Diego. I'm not saying I've never laid out in the sun but it seems the awareness (perhaps even fear) of skin cancer must be much more prevalent in sunny San Diego.

Please, please... use your sunscreen (and don't forget to re-apply), spend time in the shade, and be sun smart. Check your sun safety IQ by clicking here.

Some quick facts from the American Cancer Society:

  • Skin cancer is the most common of all cancers. This type of cancer can almost completely be avoided if people would protect their skin and follow simple guidelines when they are outside.

  • There are more than 1 million skin cancers diagnosed each year in the United States. That’s more than cancers of the prostate, breast, lung, colon, uterus, ovaries and pancreas combined. And the number of skin cancers has been on the rise for the past few decades.

  • The vast majority of skin cancers are due to unprotected ultraviolet radiation (UV) exposure. Most of this radiation comes from sunlight, but some may come from artificial sources, such as tanning booths. The amount of UV exposure depends on the strength of the light, the length of exposure and whether the skin is protected.
Reduce your risk of skin cancer:
  • Limit direct sun exposure mid-day (between 10am and 2pm have long been said to be the strongest rays - this has now been extended to 4pm)

  • Cover Up

  • Use a sunscreen with an SPF 15 or higher

  • Wear a hat

  • Wear UV blocking sunglasses

  • Avoid tanning beds and sunlamps
Read more about each of these tips here. Visit the Sun Safety page for even more information and tips.


Tuesday, May 26, 2009

2009 Support Your Local Library Challenge



First, my apologies for neglecting my blog writing and reading over the past week. I just don't know where the time has gone. I really, really do intend to get back on track. Promise! Part of the problem is that I've had my nose in a book. (FYI - I've become one of those Twilight people.)


If you know me, you know I love books. I wish I could have a room in my house dedicated as a library. Walking into a bookstore or library makes me giddy... I love the smell of library books and love the look and feel of a book. I like the crackle a new hardcover makes when you open it and the soft thud of closing a paperback. Ahhhhhhhh books. (BTW - did you know that they actually sell book scented candles? They do... check it out.)



At the beginning of the year, I joined a Fifty Book Challenge. I have so enjoyed getting back to reading for pleasure although I think I may have fallen slightly behind as we hit the spring weather, after a long and cold winter, here in Western New York. I'm currently a little more than half way through my fourteenth book and I think there's still hope.



Today, I was over at Pam's Perspective where she posted about a library book challenge. Of course I had to check it out. J. Kaye's Book Blog is hosting the 2009 Support Your Local Library Challenge. You can go here for all the details and to sign up if you're interested. I think it's a great way to re-discover how wonderful libraries really are. (My challenge list is currently empty, because I'm just starting today, but I'll be updating this post with books that apply.)


Library Challenge Books I've Read:
  1. The Mighty Queens of Freeville: A Mother, a Daughter, and the Town That Raised Them by Amy Dickinson (ISBN: 978-1-4013-2285-4)
  2. The Deception of the Emerald Ring by Lauren Willig
  3. The Seduction of the Crimson Rose by Lauren Willig
1/01/10 Update: Yes, I seem to have lost my challenge.  I did check out numerous children's items but, alas, didn't keep track of those.  Trying again in 2010 with a goal of reading 10 library books.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Loose Teeth Vintage Inspired Sundress with Petticoat GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!


Loose Teeth Vintage Inspired Sundress with Petticoat GUEST GIVEAWAY!!!!

What an adorable dress! Yes, I'm apparently lucking out on the contest finds this evening.

I LOVE purses...

... and totes, and wallets, and anything even remotely related to a purse. Yes, I am one of those women who just can't have enough purses (or shoes, but that's a topic for another day). That being said I've made a new discovery. See, I was over at Shawn's blog, SWANEESINGER, and she mentioned what a wonderful Mother's Day she had and that her dear hubby had managed to win her a great tote through a bloggy mother's day giveaway. Well, the picture she posted looked adorable so I just had to find more of these wonderful totes. Find them I did. I also found that this same wonderful tote maker (is that term correct? I don't know) is doing another giveaway! Did I mention the tote she's giving away is gorgeous and absolutely my color?!? Wanna check it out? You should, you really should.... Suzanne's blog is Just Another Hang Up and you can enter to win, too. Of course, I don't really want the competition but I do think you should take a peek anyway. Maybe shop her etsy shop, too. (To my friend, Turtle ~ you KNOW you wanna.....)

Thankful Thursday

As always, I am thankful for my wonderful husband and son. Today, however, I am also thankful for:

Washable crayons
Windex
Carpet Cleaner
Bissel Spot Lifter
Naps
Cheerios

Can you guess how my day went?

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Thankful Thursday

Ok, I just got my first ever ticket this evening. A speeding ticket. So, I think this is a good exercise for me to partake in since I'm not feeling particularly grateful. Here goes....

I'm thankful . . .

that I have a happy, healthy family

that my traffic ticket was just a traffic ticket and not an accident or anything truly terrible

that my wonderful friend Julie came to my aide to step in as baby sitter while I was getting my speeding ticket (trying to get home fast to relieve the baby sitter who had to leave; go figure)

for beer - I wish I had wine right now, but I'll take the beer

that my son went to sleep easily tonight so that I can relax and attempt to unwind
*Photo by joebeone on flickr


Monday, May 4, 2009

Too Tech Busy


So I realized, just now, that I previously hit 100 posts. I'm pretty sure this is considered some sort of milestone in bloggy land and I missed it. Which leads me to my point: I think I've finally encountered tech overload.


See, the whole thing started about four years ago when my husband and I became engaged, bought a house, and began planning our wedding and life. Given that I now live 3,500 miles from "home" I started a personal website for our little (soon-to-be) family at the time to keep long-distance friends and family apprised of our news, events, etc. With the addition of our little munchkin a few years later, I really began to keep our website updated and learned how to play with html and other fun "techy" stuff. I stayed on top of the website, adding pictures and updating regularly.


Then came facebook. This little addiction was so much fun! I re-connected with friends and discovered all sorts of (mostly) useless applications to play with and sufficiently waste my time. (I swear time moves faster when you're distracted by facebook.)


On the heals of my facebook addiction came my mom's group forums. This, however, also added to my facebook addiction since many moms from my group also friend requested me on facebook. I know... you'd think online contact via our message boards would be enough. No, no it's not enough. Why? I don't know. Just trust me on this.


When I decided to go public with my postpartum depression, I needed some sort of outlet and I missed writing so I started blogging but didn't tell anyone. Then I slowly invited some friends and family to read my blog. Now, I'm officially addicted to blogging - writing blogs, reading blogs, finding and following blogs. You name it, I seem to love it.


Ah, but I'm not done yet.... you see blogging turned me on to twitter which I just had to learn how to use so I could add the cute twitter logos and widgets to my blog. Uh huh.


Then I started selling Tupperware - this means keeping a business website up and running and the addition of my business blog.


Enter overload.


I'm so behind on my family website that I don't even know where to start adding pictures. I'm trying so hard to read and comment on blogs that I can't seem to find time to write (or at least can't find the inspiration). If I find the time or inspiration to write, I slack on the reading and commenting. Then there's the endless facebook invites, requests and updates (by the way, WHY do I need to know every quiz that every friend has taken at every moment of the day?!?), the pressure of creative tweets, building my business, and, oh yeah, being a wife and mother. Hmmm.... The addiction must. stop. now. Ok, no, I won't be giving up my blog, my tweets, my facebook friends or my family website. I am, however, going to try very hard to not get sucked into to any more addicting Internet activities (oh puh-lease don't let your mind wander there).

Friday, May 1, 2009

Book of the Month - May 2009

Ok, first I have a confession: I have not actually read this book. I just happened to come across it today and it really looks interesting so I'm adding it to my list of "to read" books.

For those of you not familiar with the In-N-Out fast food chain, they are touted by many to have the best burgers around, healthier options and, in my humble opinion, the best fast food chocolate shakes ever.

Out last month, from author Stacey Perman, is In-N-Out Burger: A Behind-the-Counter Look at the Fast-Food Chain That Breaks All the Rules. From Amazon:

"Author Stacy Perman's Guide to In-N-Out Burger's "Secret Menu"
Except for the addition of 7-Up and Dr. Pepper, In-N-Out Burger's menu has
remained much as it was when the chain opened its first drive-thru in Baldwin
Park, California in 1948. However, at some point in time, a "secret menu"
emerged. Something of an insider's code, it is an off-menu series of variations
on the chain's standard fare (Double-Double, hamburger, cheeseburger, and french
fries) that has been passed on entirely by word-of-mouth through the years.


Although the "secret menu's" origins remain a mystery, part of its existence can
be explained by the fact that In-N-Out Burger has always insisted on
cooking-to-order each individual burger any way a customer wanted it prepared.
Over time, several of these variations gained traction and somewhere along the
way a number of them were given their own names. While frequently steeped in
rumor and apocryphal tales the "secret menu" is almost always used by those
In-N-Out customers in the know."


Thankful...

Thankful Thursday on Friday. Oops....
I'm thankful for my healthy little guy.
I'm thankful for coffee to help me start the day even if I did somehow get grounds in the pot
I'm thankful for chocolate... I'm convinced I wouldn't survive some days without it.
As always, I'm thankful for my husband.
I'm thankful that Friday is finally here and our weekend isn't looking to be ridiculously crazy.


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Pineapple Hill Designs: Hangin' Out

So you really have to go check out the "how to" for some adorable hanger covers featured over at Pineapple Hill Designs today. They are really very cute. I wonder, too, if you put some potpourri or a sachet in before gluing if it would also make your closet smell wonderful. Hmmm. I bet it would. Check it out:

Pineapple Hill Designs: Hangin' Out

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Random Thought


If I made iced tea with flavored water, something like an Auquafina Splash for example, do you think it would taste yummy? I think it would. Seems like an easy way to get a flavor splash to me. Yeah, yeah, I know.... I can also buy flavored teas. Consider this option B.

Mother's Day Rally

Click on the smiley face logo at the top of the page to learn more about Postpartum Progress' Mother's Day Rally for Mental Health. Every hour you'll be able to read stories from survivors and experts.

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

It Happened Again

The part of my brain responsible for coming up with some sort of creative blog content seems to have run temporarily (I hope) dry. So, that makes it time for another blog hopping rundown. Check out a few of my recent blog destinations:

Gorgeous Giveaway!

Cookie Girl is giving away a gorgeous jewelry set in honor of Mother's Day. If you aren't interested in the jewelry, check out her blog anyway - her recipes are tantalizing. Check it out here.

Saturday, April 25, 2009

8 is Enough

I was tagged for this meme by Katie Lane over at the blog Sunshine & Bubblegum...

Here's the rules--mention the person that tagged you. Complete the lists of 8's. Tag 8 of your wonderful blogger friends. Go tell them you tagged them!

8 Things I am Looking Forward To:
1. Lazy summer days
2. My vacation (back home) to San Diego
3. Building my business
4. Summer activities with my little boy
5. Sleeping.
6. The home made chocolate I just remembered I have in the kitchen.
7. Losing weight ( I WILL do it.)
8. My birthday

8 Things I Did Yesterday:
1. Vacuumed
2. Laundry
3. Took my son to the pediatrician
4. Chatted with a friend
5. Helped with a fundraiser that raised over $5K for SIDS research!!!
6. Went to the pharmacy (twice)
7. Filled up the gas tank.
8. Drank lots of coffee (actually this happened first)

8 Things I Wish I Could Do:
1. Stay on top of clutter
2. Keep my desk clean
3. Remember to make phone calls (I'm not good with the phone)
4. Win the lottery (but I never buy tickets)
5. Meet more people
6. Be less reserved/more outgoing
7. Say no.
8. Sleep more. Much, much more.

8 Shows I watch:
(My TV watchin is limited these days, but...)
1. Curious George (with my son)
2. The Today Show
3. Big Bang Theory
4. How I Met Your Mother
5. Two and a Half Men
6. Ugly Betty
7. Days of Our Lives
8. Clean House

My 8 Tags:
1. Small Town Girl - Small Town Girl in WNY
2. AutumnMommy - New Beginnings
3. Turtle - Inside the Shell
4. Lady Di - Di's Daily Dish
5. Beth - Beth's Home Stuff
6. Neen - Ramblings from a Stay at Home Mom
7. RJ - Three Hour Tour
8. Jamie - Trips & Travels

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Thankful Thursday


I am so very thankful for my son who is growing and thriving and can always bring a smile to my face. I feel so lucky and so blessed.

I am thankful that I am feeling more and more like myself every day after my recent (perhaps ongoing) battle with postpartum depression.

I am thankful for my wonderful, supportive, generous, loving friends.

I am thankful that I found a local mom's group that has helped me more than they will ever know. In some ways, I think finding that group saved me from some dark days.

I am thankful that I'm learning how to let go and not hang on to every possession I have ever owned. Memories remain even if an object does not.

Finally, I'm thankful that this weekend is predicted to be sunny and warm. (Finally!!!)

Let Melanie's Battle Become Our Mission > HeidiM's Blog

Heidi Murkoff, author of the well known What to Expect series of pregnancy and parenting books, offers her support of the Mother's Act in her recent blog post:

"Melanie Stokes had everything to live for. A loving husband, a supportive family, a successful career - and the beautiful baby girl she'd always dreamed of. But Melanie didn't live. Instead, she leapt from the 12th floor of a Chicago hotel to her death -- a victim of an insidious, under-diagnosed, poorly understood, and utterly devastating disease suffered by at least 15% of new mothers: postpartum depression.

Tragically, Melanie lost her battle with PPD, which had progressed by the time she ended her life to postpartum psychosis. But her mother, Carol, turned Melanie's battle into her own crusade -- a crusade to break the silence and end the ignorance that has kept women with postpartum mood disorders suffering needlessly, sometimes harming themselves, sometimes harming their babies.

And that's where we come in."
Read the full story: Let Melanie's Battle Become Our Mission > HeidiM's Blog

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Postpartum Depression Is Real But Still Stigmatized | World of Psychology

Postpartum Depression Is Real But Still Stigmatized World of Psychology

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It's More than Just the Baby Blues - originally posted July 2008

***This item is being re-posted from an earlier time***
I have post partum depression. There. I said it. I initially tried to hide the fact from everyone around me (except my husband) but it’s too exhausting, not to mention counter-productive, to keep doing so. After all, isn’t the first step to recovering from anything admitting its existence? I’m sorry if this makes you feel awkward. It makes me feel awkward, too. Yet I’ve come to realize that every time I tell someone about my PPD, I feel just the slightest bit better. (And here’s a little tip for you: you don’t have to know what to say or how to respond. Usually I’ll speed right along into another topic. I’m not asking you to fix things; I’m just giving you an honest update on how I’m (we’re) really doing.)

You know what the most difficult question is? It’s the “are you just loving motherhood” question. No, I’m not. But that’s ok because it doesn’t mean I don’t love my son; I love him immensely. Don’t feel guilty for asking. After all, society has trained us to do so. I’m sure I’ve asked the same question tens of times before.

My depression is mild compared to some and I have to be thankful, not only for that, but for the fact that I allowed myself to recognize I was suffering, and for a very supportive and encouraging husband and doctor. My symptoms actually started about two months before the birth of my son. In my gut, I knew what it was but tried to brush it off as normal anxiety about becoming a new mother. During this time I’d get what I could only describe as a “twinge of sadness” most every time I felt the baby move (essentially any time I had a physical reminder that I was pregnant). My son’s delivery was difficult. There was meconium present when my water broke so we knew that this technically classified us as a high risk delivery. Four and a half hours of pushing later (I’ll skip the other details), my baby was whisked away to be suctioned so that none of the meconium could make it into his lungs. My husband didn’t get to cut the cord and I didn’t get to hold my baby, or even really see my baby for probably twenty minutes. Yes, I know, that’s not an eternity but it affected me, immensely, and only contributed to my feelings of sadness. Something just didn’t feel right.

We brought baby home and, as in the hospital, nursing was difficult. He was tongue tied and more interested in sleeping or screaming than latching on. I cried every night. No, make that sobbed every night, for weeks. We had his tongue fixed and he eventually picked up the nursing thing but I kept crying. The lack of sleep was literally painful and exhausting yet I often had trouble falling asleep when baby would sleep and would frequently only begin to finally drift off just as he would awaken. I went to my six week post partum appointment and told my doctor that I had been having a difficult time but, at this point in time, really felt that I was better and that I just had a really bad case of the baby blues. Johnathan was nursing great and I was learning to get through the day even though he was immensely fussy (we’d recently found out he had reflux and would later find out he fits the definition of a “high needs” baby). I know she was skeptical but she didn’t push me to admit I had anything more. She just gave me some good advice, not only as a doctor but as a mother of three, and a reminder to call her anytime I felt I might be sliding backwards emotionally. Later this week, my son would decide, literally overnight, that he didn’t want to nurse anymore and would scream every time we tried.

By the time he was about two months old I was back at my doctor’s getting a prescription for anti-depressants. I spent about four months on the medication before I felt well enough to wean off of them. I don’t like taking any medication unless I absolutely have to so I was anxious to come off the meds. It has been about a month since I took my last pill. Am I well? No. Am I better than I was? Yes. Sure, I wanted to believe that as soon as I was done with the pills I’d be normal again; that I’d instantly enjoy motherhood and be this happy, well-adjusted stay-at-home-mom. I’m not there yet. The key word here is yet. I’m learning that recovering from PPD is a process. It’s a process I’m learning more about every day. I’m educating myself, talking about it, and (as of this moment) writing about it. I’m confident I will recover. I don’t think I need to go back on the medication but I do know that every day is still a challenge. Some days are good; some days are horrible; others are just in-between. Perhaps the strangest thing is that while having PPD probably means I could use a little extra help around the house or with baby or that I should be leaning on friends and family more, it also makes it more difficult to ask for help or to reach out. I think about my friends and family every day. Sometimes I pick up the phone but can’t dial. I hope they have the patience to accept that reaching out, and re-connecting, is difficult for me even though they don’t understand why. Of course, I don’t really understand why either; perhaps it’s too much of a reminder of how I used to be. I’m learning to remind myself every day that having PPD does not make me a bad mother or a bad wife. It may make mothering more difficult but, who knows, maybe in the long run I’ll be stronger for it. This isn’t easy on my husband either but he’s doing the best he can to understand and support me. (Even when he’s out of white socks because I haven’t figured out how to fit laundry into my day for a week and a half.) I’m continuing on the road to recovery and I know I’ll get there. I don’t know yet what tools I’ll need as I go through this process but I’ll figure it out along the way.

PPD Quick Facts (some snippets of info I've read along the way)
  • PPD affects 30% of mothers (probably more since many go undiagnosed) and can even affect fathers and/or adoptive parents
  • PPD is really an extremely generalized term encompassing many different mood disorders - most of what you see on the news is extreme, known as postpartum psychosis (e.g. the mother who drove her car into the lake). Just because someone has PPD doesn't mean they want to do harm to themselves or their baby (in case you're wondering, NO, I never felt the need/desire for either; thank God) and even for those that think it, most wouldn't act on it.
  • PPD depression doesn't occur because of something the person does or did. It's likely hormonal and there is often depression in the person's family somewhere. It's curable when acknowledged and treated (treatment options will depend on the person)

Monday, April 20, 2009

Wow!

I can't believe I hit my 1,000th visitor today! Of course, I don't know how many hits were myself checking formatting, etc. but, since I had the blog a while before I added the hit counter, I think it's safe for me to celebrate.

Thank you to everyone who reads my blog! I wish I had a giveaway for today but, alas, I don't. Rest assured, though, that I'm working on one (I just don't know, yet, when it will be). I'd love to "meet" my readers so leave me a comment or become a follower and let me know who you are.

Thank you all!

~Julie
*Photo credit to Camera Slayer on flickr.

Sharing the Journey with Mary Jo Codey «

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Blog Week for the Melanie Blocker Stokes MOTHERS Act


Today is the 2nd annual blog day for the Melanie Blocker Stokes MOTHERS Act which, this year, will actually turn into a week long event. What is the Mother's Act you ask? "The Melanie Blocker Stokes MOTHERS Act, sponsored by Senators Menendez, Durbin and Snowe, will help provide support services to women suffering from postpartum depression and psychosis and will also help educate mothers and their families about these conditions. In addition, it will support research into the causes, diagnoses and treatments for postpartum depression and psychosis."

Why do I care? I care because I, too, suffered from Postpartum Depression and I can't tell you how lucky I feel to not only have a supportive husband, family and friends, but also to have a doctor who recognized the signs and helped me make the right choices for me and my family.

Postpartum depression is often a misunderstood illness and I feel it is important to get the word out so that women understand that not only is it not something they "did" but it's something that they can recover from.

That being said, this legislation is finding a difficult path in the senate and we need your help to get it passed. View Susan Stone's blog over at Postpartum Progress for more information and links and sign up to support mothers everywhere.

Melanie Blocker Stokes Mother's Act full text here.