Thursday, November 26, 2009

Thankful Thursday - Thanksgiving Edition

Thanksgiving is a time we are supposed to give thanks. I think sometimes we forget that. The Thanksgiving holiday has become so commercialized today. I remember growing up and seeing commercials with families gathered around the Thanksgiving table sharing a meal together. Sure, it was to sell a product but somehow it was different. This year I saw maybe one such commercial. Once. Mostly, they're all about Black Friday sales and how we need to be at the stores at 3 am. (Really? 3am? I don't get it.) On that note, I think it's time to reflect on the year and what I'm most thankful for.

I am thankful for my family. I am blessed to have a wonderful loving husband, healthy son, extended family that loves us dearly, and two parents who watch over us from above.

I am thankful for my friends. We may not see each other as regularly as we used to but I'm so lucky to have friends that are always there when you need them. Looking back on all our fun times over the years often brings a smile to my face.

I'm thankful that despite difficult economic times we have a roof over our heads, food on the table, and reliable transportation. I'm fortunate enough to be home with my son - sure we pinch pennies but it's oh so worth it.

I am thankful that I've begun to enjoy motherhood. I still have my difficult moments but I've found a way to fight PPD and win. I can't begin to describe how thankful I am for this.

I'm thankful that I live in a country that makes me feel safe. That so many men and women serve our country to keep us safe - whether it be in the military, a police force, fire department, or government. Without them, we wouldn't have so many of the blessings we do. I can't forget to be thankful for their families as well - all the spouses, children, parents who support them to no end.

Wishing everyone a happy, healthy, blessed Thanksgiving.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

You really need to check this out...

First of all, I have to say that I {heart} La Jolla Mom's blog. Not only because I miss living in the La Jolla area but also because she shares some wonderful finds.

Now, on with the business at hand. Are you like me; do you always forget to take your reusable grocery bags to the store? I'm guilty of getting them to the car but no farther. By the time I get my two year old situated in the shopping cart and realize I forgot the bags, let's just face it: I'm not going back out to the parking lot to get them. Truly, I need this bag:
But I digress. Check out La Jolla Mom's post to see the product that just might solve the problem. It's called Tote Buddy and she explains it much better than I can. (Oh - and she's having a giveaway, too!)

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

It's Prematurity Awareness Day

Today is National Prematurity Awareness Day and November is Prematurity Awareness Month. I received an email from March of Dimes this morning relaying the results of the second annual Premature Birth Report Card. Our country scored a D. That frightens me.

Admittedly, I have yet to read the report but this cause is still an important one to me. My cousin's son, William, was born premature (I believe at around 24 weeks) just over a month before I was lucky enough to welcome home my healthy baby boy. William went through many surgeries and has become the bravest little man I know. It brought a tear to my eye when I saw recent pictures of a happy, healthy William. I know he still has much ahead of him but I know we are all so thankful that because of research, and a survivor spirit, little William is here today.

Join the Fight for Preemies and find out how you can help. Donate now.

Monday, November 16, 2009

The Symptoms of Postpartum Depression

Have you ever wondered what women go through when they have postpartum depression? What their thoughts are? What makes it postpartum depression? If you are interested in learning more (and I hope you are; if not for your sake, then for the sake of someone you may know now or in the future), please read Katherine Stone's latest post:
The Symptoms of Postpartum Depression & Anxiety (In Plain Mama English) - Postpartum Progress

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Tuesday, November 10, 2009

My First Ever Blog Award

First, my sincere apologies for neglecting my bloggy duties for so long. Life has been crazy and I never seem to get caught up. I'm hoping that will change soon but in the meantime...

Amber over at Beyond Postpartum awarded my blog this award in thanks of my support of "Survivor Mamas" (those of us who have survived a perinatal mood disorder). I am so honored that she chose me as one of the recipients. Though my blog has gone many different directions since I started it, it was born out of my desire to share my PPD experiences with others and to do my little part to help spread knowledge of such disorders. Please take a minute to visit Amber's blog and learn more about her journey. Thank you, Amber!



The blog award rules:
To accept the award, post it on your blog together with the name of the person who has granted the award and his/her blog link. Pass the award to approximately 15 other blogs that you have recently discovered and think are great! Remember to contact the bloggers to let them know they have been chose for this award.
Ok.. now this is where I am breaking the rules... I've been so busy that I haven't had time in recent months to discover 15 new blogs. I do promise to continue nominating blogs and posting them on my web as I can. I WILL nominate 15 deserving blogs; just not all at once. I hope that's OK.
Another rule breaker... I didn't recently discover these two but that's not their fault and they certainly deserve recognition I nominate:
  1. Inside the Shell for sharing her survivor strength
  2. New Beginnings for her honesty
  3. Singing in the Rain for being an inspiration
  4. Grab a Cup for sharing her PPD journey to give others strength
  5. Musings, Musings, Musings - The Muser shares her experiences with perinatal and postpartum depression, motherhood and more.  She is also starting a weekly round up of other blogs that discuss perinatal mood disorders (and I thank her for including me on the list).
  6. Housewife Bliss - What a fun blog!  Her recent posts have included Sexy New Girlfriend - the experiment and Looking at my home with fresh eyes.

Friday, November 6, 2009

Uh oh...


Remember this? My 2009 De-Clutter Challenge? I think I forgot about it. I was doing really well. I was. Some days I may have missed my goal but on other days I far exceeded it so I felt that sort of evened things out. Somewhere around, oh, June or July, though, it seems I began to forget about my challenge. But 2009 isn't over yet; right? I still have just shy of two months to follow through. Wish me luck!

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Something to Think About

I was reading a post yesterday, by Katherine Stone of Postpartum Progress, about whether or not to have another baby after having postpartum depression. It struck a chord. I could completely identify with the author of the article she referenced. In the deepest, darkest days of my PPD, I would react with a vehement "no, I'm done" to anyone who made even the slightest suggestion that I should/would have another baby.

Today, I'm on the fence. On my good days I think that, with the right planning and help, maybe just maybe I could do this again. On my bad days I can still vividly recall my misery and fear ever going through that again. Just when I think we've decided that "yes, we can handle this," I vacillate yet again.

Don't get me wrong - I LOVE my son more than anything and I most certainly can't imagine my life without him. That deep feeling of love, though, did not come easily. After he was born, I knew in my head that I loved him but, try as I might, I couldn't feel that emotion the way I thought I should. There's a picture of me in the hospital holding my new little bundle that my husband recently told me was his favorite picture because of the look on my face as I looked down at our son. It broke my heart that his favorite picture was not at all what it seemed. You see, I remember that moment. I remember trying so hard to put what I thought should be the appropriate look on my face because maybe then I'd feel what I should. At the time I attributed this to a grueling labor/delivery and pure exhaustion. I would later learn otherwise.

So only time will will tell what is in store for our little family. Having grown up an only child and then losing my mother at 16 and my father at 24, I vowed I would never have only one child. Now I look at my little guy, currently playing with every car he owns, and wonder: would he miss out on even more of me if we give him a sibling? I just don't know.

Speaking of missing out... I think I'm going to go play with some cars.

Thankful Thursday

My five for today...
  • I'm thankful for a healthy little boy.
  • I'm thankful for a loving marriage.
  • I'm thankful for a full night's sleep.
  • I'm thankful for the fact that the leftover Halloween candy is almost gone so I won't be tempted any more.
  • I'm thankful that "Turtle" will be here next week!

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Speaking of an early Christmas...

Have you heard about this brave little boy? Please take a moment this week to send him a Christmas card: http://www.mattbacak.com/mattbacaklife/help-little-noah-celebrate-christmas-early/

His Care Page (register for a free account to view): https://www.carepages.com/carepages/NoahScottBiorkman

I'm Giving In


It is November 4th and tonight I drove past a home already adorned with Christmas lights. Typically I'd be the November "Bah Humbug" girl complaining that the holiday season is over commercialized and it's so ridiculous that the Christmas displays are out and that in a few short weeks (perhaps even days) the radio stations will be warming up their endless Christmas tunes. This year, I've had a change of heart. I remember saying to my husband, the day after Christmas last year, something along the lines of, "I can't believe Christmas is over; I didn't even have a chance to enjoy the season." Hmmm..... Flash back to the previous November as I Bah-Humbugged my way through stores and changing radio stations. So this year I'm not going to waste my time with negative energy. I am, instead, going to embrace the season early and see what happens. Happy Holidays!

P.S. I have referred to Christmas because it is the holiday my family and I celebrate; I by no means me to offend anyone who celebrates holidays of other faiths. I wish you ALL a blessed season.
**Photo credit: jspad's photstream on flickr
Did I tell you I was given a blog award? No, I didn't; did I? Well, I'm in the process of working on my "acceptance post" so I should have the details for you soon. I promise.